ramble

I am lost in you

and i care not.

even though 

you are false. 

*sigh*

I'm so stupid. 

I'm so torn. 

I love him. 

I know he loves me, 

but

 he's not here

and you are. 

(sort of)

He loves me, 

but

He doesn't say 

(anymore)

how

pretty

smart

funny

beautiful

I am 

(anymore).

I know he still feels that-

but you

say

it

and it's only words

(and nothing more)

and it makes all the difference.

I don't know if you're 

heaven sent

or 

from the other guy, but

you make me feel 

a way

that i haven't

in a long time.

It' s so dumb.

'Cause i know better. 

It's wrong

and 

I know better.

What a distraction you are.

My common sense goes out the door, 

And you make me feel sixteen again. 

Much like he did, 

before. 

You are 

dangerous. 

And yet

I cannot resist. 

Please, 

don't destroy me;

Or help me

to destroy

myself.